We were married in 2001 and when my parents and I went looking for my wedding dress we ended up buying it at David's Bridal. To this day I feel as though we settled on a dress. It was beautiful, but not my dream dress. The other bridal shops we went to didn't have plus size dresses. My dress was a size 26 and still needed the sides let out because it was too small. My goal is for Mike and I to renew our vows in 2011 at Disney World (where we had our honeymoon). I am not sure what kind of dress I will be wearing, but I can tell you this time I am not settling.
In April of 2002 my Nana passed away. I was only on birth control for a very short period of time. I decided that life is to precious and I wanted to get pregnant before I lost my other grandmother. In August 2002 Mike and I took a trip to the Cleveland Zoo. I began bleeding and started having increased pain throughout the day. During that night I couldn't take the pain any longer. The pain was so bad I thought I was having a heart attack. When I go to the hospital they did an exam and a pregnancy test. In the ER the doctors told me I was pregnant, but having a miscarriage. They stated I needed to go home and let nature take its course. They gave me a dose of pain medicine and sent me home. Well, on the way home I had an allergic reaction to the pain meds and was taken back to the hospital by ambulance. A week later I was still bleeding and running a fever. My mother-in-law finally convinced our PCP that I needed an ultrasound. The ultrasound showed that I had an ectopic pregnancy. I was taken to the OR for emergency surgery. Because of my weight and size the doctors were unable to do the laproscopic surgery through my belly button. They had to do an open surgery, which cut me from hip bone to hip bone. I lost the baby and my left Fallopian tube. It took a month for me to recover.
We tried getting pregnant again starting in November. Come January 2003 and I still wasn't pregnant. I knew something was wrong. We decided to start seeing a fertility doctor in Akron. This was the first time in years that my weight again became a major issue again. The fertility doctor diagnosed me has being morbidly obese and stated that my infertility is directly related to my weight. He was constantly telling me I needed to get the weight off if I wanted to get pregnant. He had me on a sugar/diabetic pill which helped me lose 15lbs., but it also made me sick all the time. I couldn't take it anymore he was a doctor that told you the way it was and I just wasn't used to hearing it. I stuck with the months of treatments, because I wanted a baby in the worst way and adoption wasn't an option at that time. To be continued at a later date.
Lea
| This Picture was taken a month before my ectopic surgery |
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